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From My Back

 A Jon Post

So here I am laying on my back, hoping, waiting for the pain to go away. I went to the hospital last night. I had and still have trouble breathing deeply, my chest and back complaining loudly every time I try. Concerned about a possible pneumonia infection, the safest course seemed to get a doctor to say yes or no. Exams and an X-ray later, the doctor slapped the X-ray up on the wall and explained the good news and bad news. Good news, no infection in my lungs. Bad news, I have a pinched nerve/disk in my spine and every time I breathe deeply it pinches it more. The only thing the doctor could do was prescribe pain-killers… ibuprofen.

It’s been a tough week for the Heller family. On Monday we rushed Anaya to the hospital when SHE had trouble breathing and was throwing up and had a high fever. She had pneumonia in her lungs and was put on an emergency antibiotic and recovered remarkably fast. Layne wrote an excellent blog about that journey over on her African Gypsy blog. If you’d like to read more about what happened there she says it much better than I could.

I did have time to go to the hospital once this week. In the midst of all the hospital visits it was good to see friends there and hear them express how much they are concerned for Anaya and her health and tell me they are praying with us for her.

So here I am…

I think I’ll list the things that I noticed most this week as we pushed though a few difficulties:

1) Layne is an amazing mother and wife. Seriously. I wish all of you could see how selflessly she threw herself into caring for and loving Anaya and I as our health was compromised this week. She is almost 7 months pregnant and she hasn’t stopped to care for herself once in all of this. She has slept very little and has loved very much. I could not be more proud of her.

2) We have an amazing group of people who pray for us, both here in Maputo and around the world. We are overwhelmed by the responses we’ve been getting from people who have been praying for us this week, especially Anaya and her health. What a tremendous testimony to the Glory of God. Being a part of the communion of saints in this way is so powerful in drawing the lonely and forgotten to Him.

3) God is so so so good. I love that I can say that when I can barely breathe, when my chest and back are in pretty intense pain and when I can move very little without pain shooting through my torso. God is very very very good. I don’t deserve a healthy back, I don’t deserve such an amazing wife, neither I, Anaya or Layne deserve healthy lungs. And yet God continues to be so merciful in His gifts. If Anaya lives 1 year or 100, God’s mercy that He would give her to us, that He would minister in and through her, and that He would trust us with her life, is so great.

4) Pinched nerves really hurt. I know there are many who may read this who know better than I how frustrating it can be.

5) It’s really hard to watch your child sick. Getting IV ports, getting shots, getting oxygen masks pushed over faces, and not being able to explain any of it. That’s hard. Like above, I know there are so many who know this pain so much deeper than Layne and I.

6) Layne is an amazing wife and mother

7) God is really really really good.

Monica

A Layne Post

How could I not?

I love when the Holy Spirit makes it that easy, that obvious.

There she lay under sheet, naked and wet. Without control of her bladder, it was nearly impossible to keep her clean. She had been discharged two days before, but without the ability to walk she was dependent on her family to pick her up. Like most, they use our crowded public transport, making it difficult to lay her down to actually get her home. Still, the promise of their arrival kept her hoping. Surely she wouldn’t stay forever, right? Her home is about 5 minutes out of the way of my usual route home… not far. I have a car.

There seemed like no other option: I would take her home.

Thanks to the resources my partner Alice has, we were able to put a diaper and new clothes on her. She looked refreshed, full of hope and energy. Funny how a little pampering makes one feel human. With the help of staff and volunteers she was carried down the stairs and leaned far back in my front seat. I would need a few directions so she would need to see the way, otherwise we would have laid her in the back.

Her frail body was layered in gray pants, a white tank top, and a heavy black sweater, and yet still she was cool. I didn’t have the heart to turn the air conditioning on. My enlarged pregnant body began to protest almost immediately. Sweat began to pour from my forehead as the sun beat through the windshield. It must of been bad because she commented through a concerned look, “You’re sweating.” I gently laughed and brushed it off as part of my pregnancy, “I’m always so hot!” yet inside beginning to panic wondering if it is possible for to make the whole way without frantically flinging my door open, falling out of the car, gasping for air. That would be humiliating.Thankfully that didn’t happen.

After missing the turn the first time and going terribly out of the way to turn around, we finally arrived. The car was unable to reach their home, as usual in these neighborhoods, only a large dirt road nearby. She would have to be carried down the narrow path that led to her red and teal home, and, while this preggo lady has a big heart and a lot of will, I wasn’t sure I could do it. Thankfully a nephew was nearby who placed her gently on his back.

Her family seemed grateful; she seemed relieved. There I left her, leaning in a tattered leather chair, with a promise of my soon return.

The next couple of days I stopped by for visits, mainly to make sure someone was taking care of her and to drop off a few necessities. Jon and Anaya joined me one day, which blessed the family and neighbors greatly, even though my daughter’s quick whines pierced the awkward silences. She does not handle the stifling heat well either. We brought juice and little cakes (muffins).

Yesterday when I arrived for a visit I could tell the newness and warm feeling of “home” was gone. She is lonely. Set in a back room with the doorway covered by a curtain, laying on a mattress covered in plastic, she lays all day, everyday. The liquid morphine helps keep her out of too much of the physical pain. Her busy family bustles in the rooms around, and, while I don’t know for sure,  I suspect no one comes to sit and talk.

Tomorrow I will take some more diapers, some yogurt, a little bottle of nail polish, and a Bible. We’ll have a little “girl time”. I am intentional about the order of that list. I believe people receive the Word, the message of hope, better when they have their basic needs met. We’ll make sure she is clean, not hungry, feeling like a human again, and then maybe, just maybe, her heart will be ready for some encouragement.

Pray for my new friend Monica. Pray for me to know how best to serve her.

Jonny Pirate

A Jon Post

Sorry this post is late in the week. There were a lot of things floating around my head this week and I had plenty that I could write about here but instead I decided to go a different route.

I sometimes draw these “Jonny Pirate” cartoons and I did this one for Layne recently. It’s sort of an “Ode to finding my adventuring/missions girl as I went out searching for adventure/missions”.
Anyway, I thought I’d share it and she didn’t mind.

Sorry to those of you who may be viewing this on phones. I haven’t optimized this site for mobile yet so you may have to go to a computer for this one.

So click on the first picture below and read the little story about finding my beauty out looking for adventure. And her purple sails…

James 5:13-16

A Layne Post

Driving to the hospital I knew I would need to manage my time a bit. I would have an hour an a half, and many times I get so caught up chatting with the ladies on the veranda I never make it inside. There were three specific people I wanted to to see. On the list was a young girl, maybe ten years old, whose tumor has gone from bad to worse. As I drove I imagined conversations in my head, ways I’d like to encourage her and perhaps calm some of her fears, knowing her time on this earth is short.

I arrived, ready to minister.

I walk into the room and in shame she turns sides as I sit, shutting her eyes, covering her face. The skin is taught beyond what seems possible, making her creamy mocha cheek appear translucent. Blood vessels bulge beneath the paper thin covering, while some have burst leaving red specks of blood beneath the skin. Beads of sweat run together, her forehead drenched from the fever. I run my hand over her hairline. She is not up for talking.

Her grandmother sits on the bed with her, legs straight out. A tired smile crosses her face in greeting. She does not speak Portuguese, and I do not speak her language.

I communicate a little through another mother close by, though she does not seem eager to play the role of translator. Ministry is difficult like this. I feel a bit helpless, unable to connect in any meaningful way.

With permission, I pray and then leave, a little dissatisfied. That was not how I imagined it.

Pray for Nelsa. Pray for the Holy Spirit to connect with her, to reveal Himself to her. Pray for an eternity in heaven for her, for her to be healed and her sins forgiven.

Life and Storms

A Jon Post

I apologize for this post being a week late.

Earlier this week when I had intended to blog we had a minor medical emergency. Layne was putting Anaya down for a nap and in just reaching over to put her in her bed Layne’s back bent wrong and she immediately knew that it was trouble. Just walking into the kitchen to me she knew that this was a problem and when we realized how serious it was I packed the car and we drove to South Africa three hours away to the only chiropractor we know of who is experienced in helping pregnant women. Layne was in agony for much of that time and we spent two nights there in South Africa rather than put her back in the car for that time.

She has been recovering slowly since then and her back is on the mend though not completely pain-free. Please pray with us that she fully recovers quickly. It is extremely hard on both her and Anaya that Layne is unable to pick up and hold her daughter.

Tropical Storm Irina

Tropical Storm Irina

This weekend and into the beginning of next week we are bracing for Tropical Storm Irina to dump a lot of wind and rain on us. It was a tropical cyclone but has been downgraded (praise God) as it’s approached Maputo. We may have little or no power for the next few days so we are “battening down the hatches” as it were and preparing for that as best we can.

God has blessed us so much to have such faithful prayer partners in those of you who read this. Thank you.