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What Happened to Winter?

A Layne Post

As the United States transitions into Autumn and Winter, here in Mozambique the days are turning from Spring to Summer all too quickly. Did we have winter? No, no we did not. With some days already nearing 100 degrees, this pregnant woman fears December. I think we’ll plan baby #2 for the winter! Our Thanksgiving and Christmas holidays are/will be spent sweating in our house trying to keep cool in any way possible.

My sister mentioned to me that maybe Anaya will just be used to it, since she is going to be raised here. I hope so. Our friends at the hospital, however, seem to complain about the heat as much as we do!

A few ways you can tell summer has come to Maptuo:

  • You no longer can use covers while sleeping at night. If you use a sheet, it is only to block the mosquitoes.
  • There are more mosquitoes. Hard to believe, but true. And somehow one always sneaks into the protective net.
  • If you have an air conditioning unit, you begin to think about skimping in areas financially to be able to pay for the electricity to run it every night and making deals with yourself, “If you make it until 7, then you can go get in bed and turn on the air.”
  • The beaches are busy on a daily basis, as kids flock to the cooler water after school in the afternoons,  and weekends are packed full with people of all ages ready to party in their Mozambican way.
  • Due to the busy beaches, traffic and driving on the weekends, especially Sundays, are just nuts.

Along the same lines, I feel as though I am slowly transitioning out of a sort of winter of the soul. Maybe I am alone, though I don’t really think so, but I feel like my walk with the Lord comes in and out of seasons. Sometimes I feel warmer than other times. Sometimes reading the Word is exciting and fresh, while at other times it feels more like a discipline. Sometimes the Lord feels near, while at other times you must hold on to the faith that He promises to stay near.

My mom used to always say she wanted to live somewhere with 4 seasons. It seems ideal, doesn’t it? Each season makes us appreciate the next. While I may not be appreciating the heat of summer here in Maputo, I am enjoying basking in the warmth and the presence of the Lord.

My Little Girl

A Jon Post

We’re having a little girl.
I get to be a daddy to a little girl.

Anaya Hosanna Heller will be here some time near the middle of February.

Over the next 20+ years I’ll learn what it means to raise a princess.
I’ll try to show her how a husband loves his wife. I’ll teach her how to drive stick shift. I’ll try to demonstrate humility. I’ll show her how to swim. I’ll teach her to clothe herself in strength and dignity and laugh at the days to come (Proverbs 31:25). I’ll teach her how to ride a bike. I’ll show her how to open her arms to the needy and extend her hands to the poor (Proverbs 31:20). I’ll teach her to climb cliffs and find hand and footholds where ascent over the crux seems impossible. I’ll hold her hand and dry her tears and pray away fevers and kiss away fear and drive out rebellion and usher in truth and shoo away ghosts and beasts that come in the night and I’ll love and care and hug.

My little girl.

Anaya (Look up to God) Hosanna (and SHOUT with praise)

You’ll bring forth poetry, and song, and dance.

You’re little hands, wrought by tender scarred ones, will show love and comfort and gentleness.

You’re little feet, dancing in the footsteps of those of us who go before you, and standing on the shoulders of those of us who stand beneath you.

Look my little one… Look little Anaya.
Look at your mother and her compassion for the lost. Look at her loving submission to her husband and her firm wisdom and her ready smile. Look at her patience and her grace. See how she clothes herself in her gentle, quiet spirit (1 Peter 3:4), how she prays and fasts and buries heart in the depths of her Lord.

And look at your savior.
Little Anaya, look to the cross. Look to the one whose blood stained the ground and in whose grace and mercy we are purchased. Look to the cross my dear Anaya.

Oh, Lord Christ, save my daughter. In your mercy and compassion look past the sin that she is born into, that I pass on to her in my fallen flesh. Chose her for eternity, Jesus, and breathe life into a dead spirit. Save my daughter. Save her please. Have mercy on her. Don’t let her go into the night, don’t leave her in sin’s darkness, don’t let her pass into that shadow. Call her out into your marvelous light. Save my daughter, Lord Jesus. Oh… save my daughter, Lord Jesus.

I get to be a daddy to a little girl.

Meet My Friend

A Layne Post

I’d like to introduce you to Carlotta.

Carlotta is a friend of mine, an albino woman in the Oncology ward. I’ve visited with her for months, giving her a special place in my heart. She currently has a tumor coming out of her eye, which causes a lot of pain all day, every day. She is a young mom to a precious little girl, Bernacia, her pride and joy. Because Carlotta comes from the north, the time she spends in the hospital is time away from her quickly growing daughter.

Last month she was able to make a quick trip home between treatments, which was such a blessing. She didn’t have a cell phone, so it was her first contact with Bernacia in months. Being so young, Bernacia didn’t understand the large bandage on her mommy’s eye and continued to ask her to remove it. Now Carlotta has a phone, so she may get to check on her daughter every once and a while.

I always wonder if mommies will come back to finish their treatment after returning home. How hard it must be to leave, not only once, but twice, this time knowing how horrific the hospital is.

Carlotta returned last week.

She seems weaker. Thinner. Oh, she is so thin. Her pain seems stronger now… like it is spreading into the left side of her brain. Her body twitches from the knife like pain every few minutes. All I know to do is sit next to her and pray.

Carlotta had some money to buy juice, but she explained that she cannot walk to the store to get it. That was something I could do. I could walk just fine. Marcelino, a dear boy from Oncology, who was currently not on treatment, walked with me and showed me where I could get the juice. (I would have been so lost without him!)

Arriving back at the hospital, Carlotta was so grateful and quickly wanted to sip on her cold orange juice. I think I would have chugged it, but she drank a little and had to stop. A few minutes later I helped her as she vomited in her hospital alloted bucket.

If you can remember, pray for Carlotta this week; she seems to be struggling more.

A Broad Smile

A Jon Post

I spent the afternoon with a little boy in my lap, talking, laughing, holding… while poison dripped into his veins. He started day 1 of 5 of chemotherapy today. Little Tomé and his brave little smile.
Every time I come to the hospital Tomé comes running. He’s 10 years old and has lived at the hospital for 6 months now.
Alone.
His father dropped him off at the hospital 6 months ago with incredible pain in his stomach. He later had a cancerous tumor removed from his abdomen and has been doing 5 day chemo treatments on three week intervals ever since.
Alone.
He hasn’t seen his father or mother the entire time.
This post was actually supposed to be about the riots and civil unrest in the city of Maputo over the past week. Layne and I ended up stuck in our house while we waited for the violence that swept through the city to calm down. We weren’t able to go visit our friends at the hospital or even see if they were okay there. The hospital is right in the middle of city and was surrounded by rioters.
I was going to go on and on about the country of Mozambique and what would incite people to burn cars in the streets and bring the city to a stand-still.
But today I spent the afternoon with a little boy in my lap. A little boy usually a bundle of energy and looking for someone to hold him, someone to whom he can belong, someone to call him… mine. Usually Layne and I are called “Tio Jon and Tia Elayna”. Uncle Jon and Aunt Layne. But today, while little Tomé sat in my lap, a woman walked by, saw us, smiled and said “Tomé has been asking for his daddy. I’m glad you came. Tomé has been asking for you.”
I don’t think I’ve earned such a reverent title in Tomé’s life. I think he’s just desperate for someone to whom he can belong. And I’m glad he feels safe enough with me for that to be true of Layne and me.
This is the vision. This is it. We just want to do it in our own home. We want to look after the orphan in his distress. We want to visit the sick. We see Jesus there. Sitting in a hospital bed, arm swollen from countless IV chemo treatments, a piece of gauze taped over a painful sore, with a broad smile on His face.

Thanks friends and family and supporters. Tomé has a family because you keep us here. His broad smile is worth our time.

Thanks.

A Picture of Tomé on my Camera Phone

A Picture of Tomé on my Camera Phone

A Special Time of Life

We had the exciting opportunity of being able to see our little one again with an ultrasound. Perhaps I shouldn’t have eaten candy before going, because the little booger was full of energy, bouncing all around in every direction. And while it was fun to watch, we could hardly hear the heartbeat or get a great picture. I left the doctor’s office giggling with the biggest grin. This little life is such a miracle.

Baby Heller!

Our other little, or not so little, one (Gasher) has become such a handful. In honesty, he is a great puppy; however, lately he has developed a few irrational puppy fears. As of yesterday, he is afraid of the grass. This is just dandy for potty time.  Ha! He demands lots of attention and has begun to train us in the area of “lack of sleep”. We keep telling ourselves it is good preparation for baby as laziness is ripped out.

In other news, which is very exciting news, the Oncology department is close to moving into the new ward! Hopefully early this week the move will be complete. The new ward is said to have cold and hot water, which is such an added blessing. Technically I believe there are only supposed to be five patients per room, instead of the current situation of all the women in one room, all the men in another room, and all the children and moms in another. Certain things I will believe as I see them, though the new building will, without a doubt, be a huge improvement to where they have been living.

To marry the topics here…

I had the fun opportunity to take my new ultrasound pictures up to the hospital to share with our friends. Many women never get an ultrasound, and most of the children have never seen one. It was so special to share our excitement and even a little education for the kids. Some of the women did not know I was pregnant, making it a fun surprise for them. As my tummy grows, they are just overjoyed. We laugh and say that this baby will  be Mozambican. One little boy insists  it isn’t possible because it will be white. =)

This is such a special time of life; I want to soak it all up.

We love you. Thanks for your constant love and support. Your presence is felt here with us.