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Guest Blog from Dan Heller: Names That Have Faces

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It’s been a busy couple weeks. My parents arrived in Maputo on September 15th, ready to spend some time with our family and see our ministry. They spent our final 1 and a half weeks with us in Maputo before our two month furlough. They got to see us running around, trying to tie up all loose ends, getting our home, Casa Ahavá, ready for two months without us. Patients to and from the hospital, to and from administration records buildings, and seemingly endless errands all led up to leaving our home on Tuesday the 17th and arriving, 40 hours later, in Layne’s parents home. It was exhausting.

So my dad reflected on his trip with my mom and he/they wrote this guest blog this week. They/we hope you enjoy.

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Names That Have Faces

Have you ever had the experience of meeting someone and thought, “finally a face with a name”.  Maybe a relative or a friend of a friend or just someone you have heard about. Vicki and I, after visiting Jon and Layne, met their first patients. Papa Zakarias, Eliza, Filomena, and Tomás are not just names anymore but faces; real people that were not just names but became “friends”.

We would like to offer a picture through our camera lens of who they are, so you might know their faces:

 

Papa Zakarias

Papa Zakarias

(Papa Zakarias) A 53-year-old diminutive man sits in comfortable solitude in a plastic chair.  The sun’s intense rays cannot

reach him here in the shade of Casa Ahavá, where Papa Zakarias lives with his fellow patients.  We often see him in this pose, playing his made-up chords on Jon’s guitar, of which Zakarias has become the unofficial keeper.  We want very much to come close enough to hear as he softly sings the words he has written to his wife and young children, the loved ones he has not seen these many months of cancer treatments; but we dare not disturb his privacy, and besides … the language barrier would prevent our understanding of the words.  But there are other glimpses into his tender father-heart:  the way he looks after the other Casa Ahavá patients; his smiling eyes blessing Jon’s and Layne’s little ones; the longing in his voice – “Ahhh, ….. Jovie …” – embracing the name of Jon’s one-year-old daughter as he cradles the top of her head in a good-bye gesture, knowing it is possibly the last time he will see these children as well.   Papa Zakarias is easy to love.  And we do – hoping, praying for the good news that he has been deemed a candidate for potentially life-saving surgery to remove the hateful tumor that has banished him to a place so far from home.

 

Auntie Eliza

Auntie Eliza

(Eliza) We love her Mozambican style:  the artfully arranged head turban covering her chemo-bald head, the beautiful wrap-around capulana skirt, the fringed shawl.  Eliza’s communication and facial expressions vary from day to day, depending on the level of pain or discomfort she is experiencing.  It is a relief to see that she freely trusts Layne with her needs and her pain.  We have been in Jon’s and Layne’s home for several days before we see an easy smile on her countenance.  We are happy that she, a grandmother herself, has been here at Casa Ahavá for all these months, hugging and cheering our precious grandchildren in our stead.  Who, we wonder, is loving on Eliza’s grandchildren for her?   Occasionally, and comically, we try to communicate with words, hoping that our body language will come through for us; it often doesn’t and we find ourselves looking to Jon or Layne for interpretation.  It is not until the day before Jon and Layne will leave for their 2-month-long furlough, that we see the full expression of Eliza’s love and gratitude toward them.  We do not understand her words, but her tears say it all.  Again, we pray and hope for this one:  God have mercy; help Eliza learn to know You in “the power of an endless life” (Heb. 7:16).

Filomena and Vicki

Filomena and Vicki

(Filomena) Quiet.  Fragile.  Recently bereaved of her 16-year-old son.  These words pass through our minds as we think of the short time we knew Filomena before she left 10 days ago to return to her village in the north.  Her fellow patients firmly believe that being at Casa Ahavá saved her life – at least for a little while longer.  On the day of her home-going, she is happy, excited to be returning to her two young children.  In spite of her shyness, she seeks Vicki out for a hug and poses for a picture with her.  Somehow, the photo reminds us that, just as He sees the sparrow when it falls, God sees her.  That He knows her name and her story.  That even though we will never see her again, she leaves her mark.  For reasons beyond our understanding, God chose Filomena to live at Casa Ahavá for a few months, to love and be loved there.  And it was good.

Tomas

Tomas

(Tomás) One would never guess from looking at Tomás that he is sick.  Strong and handsome with an easy smile, he says little, but he knows.  For one of our dinners with the patients, he proudly prepares, in Casa Ahavá’s little kitchen, a delicious Mozambican dish of cooked greens.  He enjoys an occasional game of Jenga or checkers with me, Jon, and Papa Zakarias.  We wonder what he is thinking on Tuesday morning, when he and Eliza board a bus for a two-month sojourn in South Africa for radiation treatment.  Will he see his Casa Ahavá friends again?

Casa Ahavá is Real – A House of Deep Love because of your generosity and prayers.

A place that provides comfort to the sick and dying; a place that forgets cancer; a place that is filled with music; a place where games are played; a place where the women hold little Karasi and remember their own children or grandchildren; a place where life abounds even with the protector and guardian of the house – Gasher the dog! A place of sharing meals together, trying to understand different languages (Vicki and I); a place of realizing that our hope in God is the anchor of our soul and the only answer to life’s challenges; a place of gratitude, listening to the patients express with tears how thankful they are for Jon and Layne and all they do, one in particular saying she would have died earlier if it had not been for them. This is what our prayers and generous giving are supporting.

We walked away knowing that Life is being discovered in the Face of Death.

Come Meet Tomás

A Jon Post

We’re getting ready to come back to the USA for 2 months but we want you to have the opportunity to meet our patients and friends. We spoke with Tomás and he gave his blessing and permission to share this video with you.

Please take a few minutes and get to know this incredible man, loved and known by Jesus, fighting for his life and to see his children again.

Someone made me aware that if anyone is reading this on an apple iDevice, they can’t watch the youtube clip embedded above. I think it helps if I include the link to the video straight on youtube then (I don’t own an iPad, iPhone, iPod or iAnythingElse so I’m not sure). If it helps, here’s the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DIK-WR-eLk8

Thanks!

Lord… not yet… not now

A Jon Post

Lord, not yet… not now.

Praying out loud, then in my heart, then under my breath, then moving my lips, in English, in Portuguese…

Lord… not yet. Be merciful… not yet.

Filomena Loves Holding Karasi

Filomena Loves Holding Karasi

Filomena sat in the back of my car in a sweaty panic.
“I can’t breathe, Jon. I can’t breathe!”
“I know. I know. You’re going to be fine. You’ll be fine. Just hold on.”

Lord… be merciful. Don’t let her die… not yet.

Our little car screeched onto the sidewalk in front of the 24 hour clinic and I wrapped my arm under Filomena and got her inside.
“She can’t breathe! Where is a doctor?” I asked, trying to communicate urgency to the man behind the desk, while communicating calm to Filomena at my side. “She can’t breathe.”

Lord… be merciful.

In a small examination room, oxygen being piped over her nostrils and mouth, Filomena sat heaving her chest up, desperately trying to fill lungs that refused to inflate and offer her blood its critically important oxygen supply.

“Take it off, I can’t breathe with it on.” Filomena said, clutching at the oxygen mask and pulling its elastic band over her head.
“Wait, dear sister. Wait. You need this air. You need it. I know it feels horrible but trust it. Trust me. You need it. It’s helping. Wait, dear sister.”
“I can’t breathe, Jon. I can’t.”

Lord, not yet… not now.

Filomena had been feeling fine until 9 PM last Sunday night. She had eaten dinner, watched a little TV and at 9, lain down to rest. Her problem started as a slight difficulty in drawing full breaths. She described it as a weight on her chest that she couldn’t take off. She let Layne and I know when it started and we both went to her room to see how she was. She was clearly struggling to breathe so we made the cautious decision to get her to a doctor and make sure it wasn’t anything serious. While I went to find my car keys and wallet, her breathing drastically worsened. When I came back, ready to drive her to see a doctor, she couldn’t draw enough breath to stand up.

Lord… PLEASE

On the examination table she sat there quietly, swaying back and forth from exhaustion but unable to lie down because the little breaths she was drawing couldn’t be found when she lay down. I held her against my chest and kept praying.

Lord… PLEASE

Layne, at home with the girls, echoed every prayer I prayed and rallied our families to join us.

LORD, WAIT! NOT YET!

An emergency X-ray of her chest showed her lungs were full of fluid. The doctor inserted a tube through her ribs and into her right lung. 1.8 liters of yellow fluid came crawling out.
1.8 liters. The average female lung capacity is 4.2 liters.
That’s for both lungs.

Lord… please… be merciful.

Filomena started breathing. It wasn’t perfect, her left lung was still full of fluid, still not doing its job, but she was breathing. She was breathing.
And then she started resting.
At 2:30 I finally felt comfortable leaving her resting. The clinic told me they would transfer her to the central hospital’s Oncology ward the next morning at 6. Come back at 5:30 they said.

Lord… be merciful.

A couple hours rest at home and then back to the clinic to make sure she got on the clinic’s little ambulance and then back home to get two of our other patients and get them to the hospital for scheduled doctor’s visits.
The day blurred by as Filomena was first admitted into the Central Hospital’s emergency room (as is common for clinic-hospital transfers), seen by a doctor there, had a new X-ray taken, had blood tests done, and then… finally… transferred to Oncology to be seen by her oncologist.
The Lord was merciful. She is alive. She’s alive. She’s still very tired a week later, but she’s alive and she’s breathing normally.
He was very merciful.
Filomena is still with us. She’s here and God is good.

Oh, Jesus. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

Karasi (Full of Life and Wisdom) Nitara (Having Deep Roots) Heller (Brighter)

A Jon Post

For one breathless moment we wait for a cry and a gasp.

Mother and Karasi Nitara

Mother and Karasi Nitara

For one breathless moment we trust that divine lungs are blowing into a helpless and tiny body.

For one breathless moment we wait.

And Karasi Nitara Heller sings… she sings her birthsong, melting into the unintelligible songs of angels, all covered in her mother’s blood and amniotic fluid… she sings.

Then quiet, a whimpering mother clinging to her daughter…

Then quiet, an IV drip hanging from the mother’s vein, an intrusive pest into this intimate greeting…

Then more songs, more joy, a mother’s laborsong mingled with her daughter’s birthsong.

More life, and all the wisdom of the mother poured into her daughter. All the deep roots planted over 9 months of bodily sacrifice bursting forth to the surface of pain mixed with trust all washed in sponges of alcohol based disinfectant and a joyous love.

Singing Together

Singing Together

And mother sits with Karasi Nitara and both sing softly in cries and hymns. Then the angels join in harmony with Karasi Nitara’s laughter and her mother’s weeping.

Then they fall silent to witness this holy moment of life bringing life, of blood poured out for the life of another, of tears wept in anticipation of the now.

Karasi Nitara come forth in Life and Wisdom. Plant your deep roots and shine brighter and brighter until noon day.

(with a 70s tennis player on the right there)

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