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Pausing for a Breath

A Jon Post

Casa Ahavá’s first patient has left.
Zakarias arrived for the first time in April of last year. He spent 6 months in Casa Ahavá and then returned to his home in Beira. As many of you have read here and here, he came back in January and spent another month in Casa Ahavá with his wife and daughter.
After meeting with his oncologist, we received a final, though not unexpected, response from the oncology ward.
His cancer is untreatable.
Terminal.
Fatal.
So he went home.
We spent many of those days while he was here in January and February talking about how he could prepare his life for its end. We visited multiple government offices to arrange for his veteran’s pension and social security payments to continue to support his young wife and children.
And he went home.
A wonderful doctor in the hospital’s pain management unit prescribed some medicine that has helped him tremendously. His pain levels are much decreased and his sleep time is much more peaceful.
So grows his cancer.
So creeps towards its glory, the spirit of Papa Zakarias.
Upon arriving home, he promptly sent someone to find out information on Filomena. As we mentioned here, we have been unable to contact her.
A neighbor had the news.
She died. Two weeks ago.

Goodbye Sister

Goodbye Sister

So arrived into glory the spirit of dear, sweet, Filomena.
When I heard the news all I could remember was the night I held her trembling body in my arms and willed oxygen into her fluid-filled lungs.
For this, Lord? For this? You saved her that night… for this?
Though I know the answers to the questions and the pain that flooded my heart, when I heard of Filomena’s death, those answers brought little comfort. They brought little relief from the weariness that threatened to overwhelm my spirit.
So entered glory, the spirit of Filomena.
Casa Ahavá; Home of a love that chose pain before ease. Home of a love that chooses flood waters before abandonment.
Now Casa Ahavá welcomes her next love. Now she offers her bed and arms to her next friend.
Dear Tia Anita was all packed and ready to come to Casa Ahavá on Friday, February 21st but paperwork and slow processes turned that into Tuesday afternoon, the 25th. Having spent the last 5 months away from her family and faced with the prospect of the next 2-3 with us, her stand-in family, we made the decision to send her to her home town for two weeks to see her daughters and grandchild before her next treatment. She will be back to stay with us next week on the 11th.
So now we pause. Now we try to breath. Now we remember the Sabbath that our Lord made holy, and we try to keep it holy.

I think God thought up camping/rock climbing for just such a time.

Thanks for praying for us, Zakarias, and for Filomena. It is known and it helps.

Update on Zakarias

A Layne Post

I’ve wondered what to say. I keep thinking, “I’ll write after his doctor’s appointment.” Now that doctor’s appointment has moved two times, thanks to Dr. travels, and I have decided to delay no longer. It is time for an update!

Papa Zakarias, his wife Theresa, and his 2 year old daughter Maria have been living with us for a month now. He has 4 other children at home, 14 years old and younger, whom his mother-in-law and sister-in-law are caring for as the children continue their school studies.

Before he came, we communicated multiple times with Papa Zakarias about expectations for why he would come back to Casa Ahavá. We understood and he indicated that he understood that he was coming for hospice care and that the hospital could only provide pain management, something that is not offered in Beira, the city where he lives.

The first week he was here we had lots of conversations about the future to make sure we were all on the same page. Turns out we weren’t. Papa Zakarias hopes that chemo treatment would be beneficial and wants to ask an oncologist again if that is possible. Jon has had personal conversations with 3 oncologists at the hospital who have all indicated that chemotherapy could no longer help him but Zakarias wants to hear it for himself.

This change in his outlook did take Jon and I by surprise and we have had to make a bit of a mental shift to know how to best support and love him. A decision about treatment is not something Jon and I have control over. Jon helped Papa Zakarias make an appointment with one of oncologists at the hospital and hopefully on Monday he will have a meeting with him. If he does not begin treatment, as of now, we believe he will return home to be with the rest of his children. If the oncologist believes it beneficial, he would stay here during treatment. Theresa and Maria would stay during the first few cycles to see how he managed.

If the oncologist reconfirms that chemotherapy is not an option, before going home, they have a few decisions to make – if his wife will have the time, strength and resources to care for him in their home as his health deteriorates and if he will be able to manage his pain with only Tylenol. Hard decisions! Pray for them!

We are sure that his time here with us has not been in vain. We have been trying to help him get his affairs in order before his time comes. Papa Zakarias is a veteran of Mozambique’s War for Independence and he has access to some monthly income and benefits (ex: transport and medical discounts and free school fees for his children). He also qualifies for a monthly income for his age and years of work. He and Jon have been down at government offices filling out the proper paperwork making sure everything will continue to go to his wife and children.

We also continue to address their spiritual health. I want so badly for them to know and understand the Lord’s deep love for them and the sacrifice that was made on their behalf. Pray with us. I keep praying that the Lord would use dreams and visions and meet Papa Zakarias right where he is – in such a bold manner it would be undeniable. It is our desire for Papa Zakarias that he would come to the end of his life full of peace and full of hope for the next life.

How is his current health?

He is weak. He is unable to eat much. If he walks around and does too much in a day, his whole body feels the consequences with aches and exhaustion. He has had a secondary infection that he is treating now. He struggles a lot at night, unable to sleep and sometimes experiences body tremors. The tumor on his liver is growing and protruding, causes great pain and discomfort.

Pray with us that we would love him and his family well.

This is All We’ve Got Right Now

 

A Jon Post

I’ve been trying to write this for a while now. I hate it. I’ve started a few times and keep ending up feeling like I’m forcing something out and trying to do a nice mix of emotion, encouragement, spirituality, faith, and all the other nouns or adjective-nouns that are used to describe what we do/write.

I can’t do that right now.

So here you go:

Eliza died last month. Her tumor grew so big it shut her throat and she couldn’t eat or speak. She died in pan. We couldn’t be there.

Filomena is suffering immense pain, her weight has dropped dangerously low, and her phone number, our only way to communicate with her stopped working. A neighbor in her town far to the northern part of this country tells us she’s been admitted to the hospital there and is dying.

Zakarias came to live with us along with his wife and two year old child. I’ve had many conversations with him since he arrived last Tuesday about his health. He’s dying. He only came back because the pain was too intense and there was no way to get any medicine to control it so he came here. We are trying to help him.

We’re finding moderate success.

He’s dying.

Dosma at the Beach

Dosma at the Beach

Two weeks ago a young man named Dosma, an 18 year old boy who had come back to the hospital from his village of Calimane, died. I had known him almost two years. About a year and a half ago I took him to the beach and the little shopping mall that’s near the beach. We spent the afternoon talking and thinking about home, the farm, school, his first girlfriend, his mother, my money, his desire to be rich, his need for Christ.

He died two weeks ago.

This has been a tough start to 2014.

Pray for us.

Come Meet Eliza

A Layne Post

I knew Eliza a long time. She had a big personality, one you could not miss. She was full of faith and had a love for God’s word, despite the fact she was unable to read. All day long you could catch her singing songs to her Lord. She was a prayer. When she felt pain, her response was to cry out to God. One weekend Jon was quite sick and I remember her knocking on the door, walking into the living and passionately praying to the Lord for his healing.

She loved her family. She spoke with her mother and sister daily. Her daughter, son, and grandchildren were her pride and joy. It was difficult for her to spend so much time away from them. We were honored to have her come and stay with us, to become a Grandma around here.

She loved to cook and thought her cooking was some of the best in the country – no one else could get it quite right. She had all the tricks to the perfect this or that. She served people through her cooking – Jon and I as well.

When Jon traveled, she would come in to play with the girls, feed Jovie, and just sit with me. She helped teach Jovie to walk and patiently chatted with Anaya, even when Anaya would only speak of Katy Duck (her stuffed animal).

Eliza knew she didn’t have long. She was confident in her Savior, and last week she was redeemed, saved from this life with all its sorrows and pain, and she is living in freedom with Him.

We interviewed Eliza and asked a few questions about her family and her sickness. This was to send to her family on a DVD so that they could see her talking about them and about her life while she still had strength and life. She gave us permission to share it here as well. We hope you have the time to honor her and remember her by watching this video.

Guest Blog from Dan Heller: Names That Have Faces

A Jon Post

It’s been a busy couple weeks. My parents arrived in Maputo on September 15th, ready to spend some time with our family and see our ministry. They spent our final 1 and a half weeks with us in Maputo before our two month furlough. They got to see us running around, trying to tie up all loose ends, getting our home, Casa Ahavá, ready for two months without us. Patients to and from the hospital, to and from administration records buildings, and seemingly endless errands all led up to leaving our home on Tuesday the 17th and arriving, 40 hours later, in Layne’s parents home. It was exhausting.

So my dad reflected on his trip with my mom and he/they wrote this guest blog this week. They/we hope you enjoy.

A Dan Post

Names That Have Faces

Have you ever had the experience of meeting someone and thought, “finally a face with a name”.  Maybe a relative or a friend of a friend or just someone you have heard about. Vicki and I, after visiting Jon and Layne, met their first patients. Papa Zakarias, Eliza, Filomena, and Tomás are not just names anymore but faces; real people that were not just names but became “friends”.

We would like to offer a picture through our camera lens of who they are, so you might know their faces:

 

Papa Zakarias

Papa Zakarias

(Papa Zakarias) A 53-year-old diminutive man sits in comfortable solitude in a plastic chair.  The sun’s intense rays cannot

reach him here in the shade of Casa Ahavá, where Papa Zakarias lives with his fellow patients.  We often see him in this pose, playing his made-up chords on Jon’s guitar, of which Zakarias has become the unofficial keeper.  We want very much to come close enough to hear as he softly sings the words he has written to his wife and young children, the loved ones he has not seen these many months of cancer treatments; but we dare not disturb his privacy, and besides … the language barrier would prevent our understanding of the words.  But there are other glimpses into his tender father-heart:  the way he looks after the other Casa Ahavá patients; his smiling eyes blessing Jon’s and Layne’s little ones; the longing in his voice – “Ahhh, ….. Jovie …” – embracing the name of Jon’s one-year-old daughter as he cradles the top of her head in a good-bye gesture, knowing it is possibly the last time he will see these children as well.   Papa Zakarias is easy to love.  And we do – hoping, praying for the good news that he has been deemed a candidate for potentially life-saving surgery to remove the hateful tumor that has banished him to a place so far from home.

 

Auntie Eliza

Auntie Eliza

(Eliza) We love her Mozambican style:  the artfully arranged head turban covering her chemo-bald head, the beautiful wrap-around capulana skirt, the fringed shawl.  Eliza’s communication and facial expressions vary from day to day, depending on the level of pain or discomfort she is experiencing.  It is a relief to see that she freely trusts Layne with her needs and her pain.  We have been in Jon’s and Layne’s home for several days before we see an easy smile on her countenance.  We are happy that she, a grandmother herself, has been here at Casa Ahavá for all these months, hugging and cheering our precious grandchildren in our stead.  Who, we wonder, is loving on Eliza’s grandchildren for her?   Occasionally, and comically, we try to communicate with words, hoping that our body language will come through for us; it often doesn’t and we find ourselves looking to Jon or Layne for interpretation.  It is not until the day before Jon and Layne will leave for their 2-month-long furlough, that we see the full expression of Eliza’s love and gratitude toward them.  We do not understand her words, but her tears say it all.  Again, we pray and hope for this one:  God have mercy; help Eliza learn to know You in “the power of an endless life” (Heb. 7:16).

Filomena and Vicki

Filomena and Vicki

(Filomena) Quiet.  Fragile.  Recently bereaved of her 16-year-old son.  These words pass through our minds as we think of the short time we knew Filomena before she left 10 days ago to return to her village in the north.  Her fellow patients firmly believe that being at Casa Ahavá saved her life – at least for a little while longer.  On the day of her home-going, she is happy, excited to be returning to her two young children.  In spite of her shyness, she seeks Vicki out for a hug and poses for a picture with her.  Somehow, the photo reminds us that, just as He sees the sparrow when it falls, God sees her.  That He knows her name and her story.  That even though we will never see her again, she leaves her mark.  For reasons beyond our understanding, God chose Filomena to live at Casa Ahavá for a few months, to love and be loved there.  And it was good.

Tomas

Tomas

(Tomás) One would never guess from looking at Tomás that he is sick.  Strong and handsome with an easy smile, he says little, but he knows.  For one of our dinners with the patients, he proudly prepares, in Casa Ahavá’s little kitchen, a delicious Mozambican dish of cooked greens.  He enjoys an occasional game of Jenga or checkers with me, Jon, and Papa Zakarias.  We wonder what he is thinking on Tuesday morning, when he and Eliza board a bus for a two-month sojourn in South Africa for radiation treatment.  Will he see his Casa Ahavá friends again?

Casa Ahavá is Real – A House of Deep Love because of your generosity and prayers.

A place that provides comfort to the sick and dying; a place that forgets cancer; a place that is filled with music; a place where games are played; a place where the women hold little Karasi and remember their own children or grandchildren; a place where life abounds even with the protector and guardian of the house – Gasher the dog! A place of sharing meals together, trying to understand different languages (Vicki and I); a place of realizing that our hope in God is the anchor of our soul and the only answer to life’s challenges; a place of gratitude, listening to the patients express with tears how thankful they are for Jon and Layne and all they do, one in particular saying she would have died earlier if it had not been for them. This is what our prayers and generous giving are supporting.

We walked away knowing that Life is being discovered in the Face of Death.