A Layne Post
On Friday this week, it will have been 6 months since we left the United States. And what a whirlwind it has been! We have stayed in 5 different countries for weeks to months at a time. (Two week minimum) We have loved deeply and lost tragically; and all of it has opened our hearts to know Jesus more and more.
He is beautiful and terribly mysterious.
Tonight we were chatting with new friends, explaining how we plan to live in Africa for the rest of lives, or at least as far as we can see in the future. It really feels like home; we are so comfortable here. Every now and then I try to imagine us back in States, living life… and I can’t. We belong here; God placed this place, this continent, in the core of our beings. We are captured. I believe the Lord knew this before we were knitted in our mother’s wombs.
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While in Angola we visited the hospital one day. We were supposed to visit a sick young girl, the daughter of the missionaries’ friends; however, when we arrived she had been taken into an emergency operation and was not doing well. The doctor kept telling us it was bad, very bad. Minutes after being there, the father was taken aside and told his thirteen year old daughter had died of appendicitis.
Wobbling he came of the room in a state of shock. After a few helpless sobs, he knew he had to find his wife, her mother. She had just gone to the river to wash some clothes, a simple task, one she does everyday. But today was not ‘everyday’. I knew she would never be able to forget this day. He went to find her with the little strength and sanity that he had.
I wanted to hide; I shouldn’t have been there. This was private, and I was a stranger, an intruder. I tried to blend into the wall.
The body, so small and petite, so young, was wrapped in sheet and taken on a stretcher into the chapel. I heard the wailing coming in the distance. My previous detachment suddenly began to crumble, as I was drawn in. I slipped behind a pillar.
Her mother, physically supported by the shoulders of her husband, came wailing, thrashing, and singing out the name of her dead daughter. It was haunting. Other women joined in the wailing, almost in dancing movements around the body. It was raw grief, eerily beautiful and confident.
As I stood outside, behind my pillar, sobs welled up for the loss this family was experiencing. This life here; loss is common, closer it seems.
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Sitting on the front steps of the hospital in Menongue I thought of my friends at the hospital in Maputo, and I longed to be with them, to be the arms of Christ once again to the sick and dying, to people I knew and who knew me.
The Lord knows what will satisfy us more than we could ever muster up. Six months ago when we left the United States, we would have never imagined our new found passion, but our mysterious Lord in His beautiful ways knew.
I cannot wait to see what else He has in mind.
Thanks for your continued love and support. We think about and pray you, individually; we love you so much. We have no new health news for now, though I haven’t been sick this week. Praise God!
6 months! Youv’e been all over the place in that short time…so much happening. Praise God you haven’t been as sick..Thank You Jesus for this answered prayer. That poor family, I can’t imagine their pain. I will hug Lynise again today. You both look wonderful, I think your hair and Jon’s beard are FABulous! Miss and Love you both
You have been in my prayers so much as you research and have tests in regard to your health, Layne. We are excited and see the doors God has open for you in Angola. Enjoyed being with your folks, Jon, and Anna, at Relay for Life, raising money for cancer research – something close to my heart as I was diagnosed one year ago. Sang happy bd at midnight to Anna, but other than that we were pretty lame birthday celebrants!
We love you guys and pray for you!!!! In the midst of all of your uncertainty,waiting, pain and the daily joy I pray that you would experience our Lord so BIG and COMFORTING!!!
Vesna
Strange how life — and grief — can be so profoundly awful … and yet so ordinary. Having recently spent a night at a gathering of cancer victims, cancer survivors, those who had lost loved ones to the enemy, and many others who just care, I am reminded that the horror and pain of loss is not unique to third-world nations.
Your story illustrates the painful, earthy phenomenon that happens many times daily all over the world. May God show us, His people, how to bring heaven into the earthiness of the world.
Beautifully written Layne…I cannot in some ways believe six months then in another instant seems longer. I too am so very thankful you’ve been well:) I also really like your hair, you are beautiful with short or long! Jon looking good with his beard as well:) I cannot wait either Layne to see what our AWESOME God has planned for you two:) Much love and many prayers.